Jealous Kind - WOW!
Okay - I had a sudden prompting to go out and get this CD yesterday and spent WAY more that I usually would have for any CD - but had to have it - and who am I to disobey Holy Spirit, right?! Well, this song blew my mind - both lyrically and musically. And I really think I've heard it at BW sometime but I'm not sure. But it's one you have to HEAR to appreciate, ya know? But at any rate, here are the lyrics:

Jealous Kind

I built another temple to a stranger
I gave away my heart to the rushing wind
I set my course to run right into danger
Sought the company of fools instead of friends

You know I've been unfaithful
Lovers in lines
While you're turning over tables
With the rage of a jealous kind
I chose the gallows to the aisle
Thought that love would never find
Hanging ropes will never keep you
And your love of a jealous kind
Love of a jealous kind

Tryin' to jump away from rock that keeps on spreading
For solace in the shift of the sinking sand
I'd rather feel the pain all too familiar
Than be broken by a lover I don't understand
'Cause I don't understand

One hundered other lovers
More
One hundered other altars
If I should slow my pace and finally subject me to grace
And love that shames the wise
Betrays the heart's deceit and lies
And breaks the back of foolish pride


WOW! To me it's about our condition - that we have wayward hearts that will always seek out things to meet our needs to be filled in the things around us. Yet our God is a jealous God. Jealous of those things we use and seek and sell ourselves out to - and yet He never turns His back. He has married the Harlett - entwined Himself with the wayward because He loves us beyond description! And all in the hope that we WILL see the depths of His love. And all the while telling us there is NO CONDEMNATION - go figure! A love I will NEVER fully understand before I encounter Him face to face!

Okay - so a note to say all these posts didn't happen in one day - I cheated! I copied the latest page from my Xanga. I can't imagine trying to do different posts for different blogs, but since I'm "connected" to different people on each one (MySpace, Xanga and here), I'll just copy each post to all sites. Boring perhaps but that's me!

I really like the appearance of this blog and if I can learn how to change code a bit, I'm sure I'll like it even more.

Oh - eventually I'll copy the words to the aforementioned Bebo song too... that's from a different page.

More song lyrics and spillage!


Okay this is yet ANOTHER song from Charlie Hall's "Flying Into Daybreak". Have I mentioned I LOVE this recording?! And it IS life changing because the Life Changer is at the heart of it. Okay, so here are the lyrics to the song "Bravery" and I think it totally ties to my previous blog. His smile makes me brave enough to fly into who He made me to be!!!!! Now if I could just keep my eyes on that smile!

And as we talked I was speechless
And my heart pounded
And as we walked a little while
I knew that I'd been found
And here I am no more disguise
No longer blinded
I see it clear
I am Yours, I am Yours!

I rise above all the
Flattery and frowns
I put my head up to Your chest
And listen for sound
You make me brave
Every time I see You smile
I see it clear
I am Yours, I am Yours

And You
Are breathtaking and breathgiving
You
Are breathtaking and breathgiving

Doesn't my heart burn within me?
Doesn't my heart burn within me?

Stolen Beautiful Quote!

A dear friend wrote this in an email and I had to steal it because she was writing my heart! And to see my heart on a page brought this God-process into focus and clarity like nothing I've ever experienced and it made me realize the crashes are SO worth flying in my TRUE identity! To feel is human - to fail is human - to fall is human. To be rescued and craddled by my loving Father, united with my lovesick Bridegroom and filled to the fullest with Holy Spirit - THAT is the power of God and God alone. In my weakness He is ever strong and ever present and never changing! And in that truth I embrace the words of my dear friend and commit to flying out loud!!!

"He [Holy Spirit] has awakened something in me - something that will not be contained - something wild and free and untamed (and dare I say? ferociously hungry!). And I fear I have to follow it... and yet in the following I may discover the truth - that I was created to fly out loud. I AM fearfully and wonderfully made. And sometimes this earthsuit does some wild and crazy things - but I'm beginning to learn that I will never truly discover ALL of Who He is until I am willing to risk ALL of who I am..... and who I am not. So I'm shaking off the crash, and fluffing back out my little feathers.... and I can smell the wind of new sky...."

Love Song back to God


Okay - a couple of weeks ago I posted the lyrics to a Bebo song that was God expressing His love toward us (ME!). Today I got the 2X4 over the head with this old but awesome song from Chris Rice - MY love song back to God!

Missin' You

I heard about the day You went away
You said You had to go prepare a place
And even though I've never seen Your face
I'm missin You

I lie awake tonight and I watch the sky
And I wish it didn't have to be so high
'Cause I'm belonging on the other side
And I'm missin' You

'Cause somewhere behind those stars
Is someone who belongs to me
And I know in my deepest heart
There's a place for You
Until I find the place You've made for me
But still I'm missin' You

I dream about Your promise to return
And I wake up hanging on Your every word
But for now my feet are planted here on earth
And I'm missin' You

So even while they say that I'm a fool
I know You see me waiting here for You
Oh, and prayin' that somehow You'll get here soon
'Cause I'm missin' You

How much longer will it be
'Til I get to see You?
And though I know You're right here with me
Tell me when can I be there with You?

Oh I'm missin' You
Lord I'm missin' You

We have this huge hole in us that only He can fill (very cliche' I know - but true) and I believe we'll have that longing in our hearts until the day we are united - Bridegroom to Bride - and that longing will be fully satisfied. Question is, how do we allow Him to satisfy us best here before that Day? All I know is hearing His heart for me and returning that longing to Him seems to make things a bit easier. And if it weren't for that longing, I'd quit the pursuit - so today inspite of the gaping hole, I am thankful for the longing He's given me so that I continually pursue the Lover of my Soul!

Qualifying that last post...


I feel the need to say that I'm not bashing God's Church - not at all! I believe the Bride of Christ is a beautiful thing as She is being built upon the cornerstone of Christ and I believe the promise that one day the Bride will be ready for Her Bridegroom. What I am bashing is what humanity has done with the concept of church - how we've twisted it into corporate crap or into a political machine that power trips beyond imagination in the name of Christ. BUT... what the enemy intends for harm God makes glorious and THAT is the hope we cling to!

Drawing people in OR meeting them where they are...

We had a neat discussion at a planning meeting last night. The topic was how to reach college students. Lots of ideas were tossed around and chewed on but the question I came away with and have been pondering for a long time is, why does the church feel the need to "draw people in"??

It seems to me that, at the very least in our small town, church going people are church going people. They may stay at one gathering for years or they may float from church to church. They are the people who have ideals about what Christainity is and church attendance is important to them - some desire true worship - others go because they feel they are supposed to.

Then there are others who believe in God - possibly believe in what God did through Jesus - who are puking sick of what institutional church has become and who are refusing to get involved in "the system" ever again.

And then there are others who are out there searching for something real but have refused to believe anything we "christians" have to offer because we're hiding behind masks, smearing icing on cow piles trying to attract them, etc. So my question is, will it do any good to come up with some grand scheme or plan to draw people to church? Will we attract anyone? Yeah, probably so - but most will be "churched" people looking for something fresh and new. And that's not a bad thing but when you look at the "great commission" (I am really hesitant to use that phrase), isn't the message to GO and make disciples? Aren't the people we're truly attracting already primarily disciples? Maybe, maybe not, but the whole thought of drawing people in to church seems so incredibly unnatural biblically as well as in today's society.

Truth be told, I think we as believers are terrified to truly do what God would desire - go into the world and live our lives IN the world, trusting Holy Spirit to guide us in truth. Then let God direct our paths and learn how to love other people regardless of whether they become believers or not - regardless of their belief systems. We should drop our agendas and learn how to love ourselves and love others the way He does - unconditionally without expectation or requirement! I believe in my heart that as we do that, God can actually do what He desires with us "preoccupied" in relationship. That allows us to be part of the process but requires us to surrender all control to Him. Sounds simple... but with the church crap we've been fed for so long, just seeing scripture without that tainting is a monumental task all it's own.